stressed mad disappointed.

***i woke up at ten today.
cut my hair and got ready to go to susan and jumel's baby shower.
picked up sheila around 2ish then we went to target to buy a last minute gift.we got to the party around 3ish.. it was fun until i had to leave around 5:30 for some stupid reason.

*** from this point on everything got all shittyyyyy.. i met up with friends and supposedly go to SD.. i hate expecting to have a good day but all i get is crap. i just hate that i wasted time and fcking gas and get nothing out of it! i tend to expect alot and be let down. and i just wish i can stop myself from doing that. i could've had a better day today if only i made a better decision.. but at the same time i don't wanna come out to be self centered. it's not like i dont wanna hang with these people but today is not a "hanging out" day i had much important/productive things to do.

I JUST WANNA FUCKING SLEEEEP AND FORGET ABOUT THIS DAY! i tried but i just keep waking up. now my head is pounding! I JUST WANNA GO UP THE MOUNTAIN AND SCREAM!!!!

(01/20 GOSHHH I READ THIS AGAIN, AND IT SOUNDED MEANER THAN THE FIRST TIME I WROTE IT.. lol. sorry it was out of anger and heavy emotion. hehehe.)